Sometimes Valerie Granzo ignores the comments about her appearance that strangers yell to her on the streets of New York City. Sometimes she yells back.
âI know that it sounds like Iâm complaining,â said Ms. Granzo, an office administrator, recording artist and D.J. who was one of many City Room readers responding to our call for stories of street harassment earlier this year.
Ms. Granzo, 22, wrote that the street harassment she endured frequently was an emotional strain, leading her to feelings of anxiousness, fear and anger, among others.
âI am more than what my exterior looks like,â she said.
Ms. Granzoâs story, submitted as part of a continuing series on street and subway harassment, illustrated how harassment or the fear of harassment had pervaded her life. She said she did not often speak about the incidents.
Ms. Granzo talked about the unwanted attention, catcalls and gestures she experiences throughout the city âmultiple times almost every day.â She said that for years she has been cornered, followed by men in cabs and grabbed by strangers on the street who made inappropriate comments about her body.
She doesnât expect anything to change.
âI donât think people are aware enough that itâs a problem,â Ms. Granzo said. âI donât think people care enough that itâs a problem.â
In sharing her story, she said, âmaybe someone else might realize that theyâre not alone with their feelings and experience.â
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Read about Ms. Granzoâs experience with street harassment, and hear her tell it, below:
I wish I could walk down the street without getting angry. I wish I didnât purposefully have to make myself look unattractive to avoid calling attention to myself. I wish I could wear headphones and not have people gesture for me to take them off, only to hit on me. I wish that I wouldnât get comments on my race, comments that are O.K. because theyâre supposed to be compliments, like âvanilla babyâ or âsnowflake.â I wish people wouldnât stop me as I walked down the street at 3 a.m., grab my hand and tell me not to get scared but they just had to say how I was âoh so beautiful.â I wish cars wouldnât follow me down the street. I wish I didnât get followed into grocery stores and told that I am âoh so fine.â
I wish that people didnât grope me in the subway or drunkenly corner and serenade me where I canât escape. I wish people wouldnât tell me to smile, as if I were there for their viewing pleasure. I wish people didnât tell me that I was too pretty to frown, as if I am not allowed to have feelings. I wish my real smiles didnât get stolen off my face by some thoughtless remark. I wish I didnât learn to hide my happiness when outdoors. I wish I didnât get catcalled literally eight times in one block. I wish that I wouldnât be so affected by it and wish that I could just brush it off, and not have it give me as much anxiety as it does. I wish that I could resist responding and getting into arguments. I wish that I didnât get called a bitch, cold, stuck up, and cursed out when I do refrain from talking back. I wish those words flung at me so carelessly from a distance didnât repeat themselves in my mind for blocks. I wish I didnât have to move to quieter neighborhoods to get away from it. I wish men would think of the daughters and sisters and mothers they are objectifying and terrifying.
I wish people had more respect. I wish I didnât overreact to the few who sincerely do mean well, because they donât understand and Iâm so fed up. I wish I could explain this to the young men who think that women should appreciate these âcompliments.â
I wish that when I tried to explain my feelings to people, I didnât get called narcissistic and vain, or told that Iâm asking for it. I wish I didnât get told not to complain. I wish this wasnât considered normal, because I know itâs not. I wish there werenât so many of us who experience this and say nothing. I wish that we could speak. I wish that I didnât feel so isolated and misunderstood.
I wish I knew how to make it stop.
What is harassment to you?
Ms. Granzo: Anything that makes you feel negative. Anything that takes you away from yourself. Anything that feels inappropriate or makes you feel uncomfortable or makes you feel like âI wish this wasnât happening right now.â
Whatâs your definition of street harassment, City Room?
This post is part of a series on street and subway harassment in New York City. Read earlier posts here.