âI couldnât pay the rent,â said Judith Malina, 87, the artistic director and co-founder of The Living Theatre, explaining why a year ago she lost the site of her Lower East Side theater company and the commercial space above it, where she had lived for six years.
She had lost leases before during her long life in independent theater. This time was different.
âI was crying, screaming,â she said, about leaving her neighborhood. âThey had to carry me to the car.â
Her son, Garrick Beck, 64, and a few of the actors in her company, helped her move into a place she never expected to be: The Lillian Booth Actors Home, an assisted living and skilled nursing care facility on a former estate in Englewood, N.J.
âI still havenât fully adapted to being here,â she said about the home, which includes former actors, writers, and stagehands. âIâm restless. Iâm too impatient to sleep.â Yet, the move has galvanized her: An actress and playwright, Ms. Malina has been writing and is making plans to direct new work.
Ms. Malina was born in Germany, and her father was a rabbi. At 7, she recited poetry at anti-Nazi rallies in Madison Square Garden. At 21, she started The Living Theatre with her husband, Julian Beck. The experimental company â" dedicated to political change â" removed the wall between performers and audience, and celebrated nonviolence and anarchy in works like âParadise Nowâ and âEureka!â
Ms. Malina is revered as a longtime maverick â" she has received five Obies â" and as a generous supporter of the off-off Broadway community. She has nurtured generations of actors and activists, including Martin Sheen, who began his career at The Living Theatre in 1960. She has appeared in films, including âEnemies, A Love Storyâ and âDog Day Afternoon,â and on TV series, such as âThe Sopranos.â Recently, she was the subject of âLove and Politics,â a documentary by Azad Jafarian.
Her domestic life was untraditional. She had an open marriage with Mr. Beck, with whom she had two children. Following Mr. Beckâs death in 1985, she became co-artistic director with Hanon Reznikov, a company veteran, whoâd been her lover. They married in 1988, and lead the company together until his death in 2008, at 57.
She has mixed feelings about her new home. âIâm more comfortable,â admitted Ms. Malina, who has emphysema. âThe people here are very good to me. Thereâs nobody here I wouldnât call a friend.â
And she enjoys the serenity of the grounds. âThis is my favorite spot,â she said, sitting in her wheelchair, facing a pond. âI come out here two or three times a day.â
But âI miss the Lower East Side,â she said, âprimarily the people, the creativity. Itâs where everything thatâs good started,â she added, referring to its history of supporting progressive movements. âIf thereâs going to be a beautiful, nonviolent revolution, itâs going to start there.â
Sheâs still connected to her old life. Living Theatre actors âvisit her almost every day,â said Brad Burgess, 28, the companyâs executive producer. The troupe is negotiating a residency at the Clemente Soto Vélez Cultural and Educational Center on Suffolk Street in Manhattan. This spring, theyâre planning to debut workshops of âNo Place to Hide,â a new play by Ms. Malina, which sheâll direct.
She travels to Manhattan once a week. âI like to see what my colleagues are doing,â she said.
But these visits arenât enough: âI feel very exiled, abandoned,â she said. When rehearsals on her new play start, âIâll be more a New Yorker.â
In her room, she writes in spurts throughout the day and night. âShe doesnât take time to relax,â Mr. Burgess said, âand she gets annoyed by people who do.â
She writes frequently her diary as she has for almost 70 years. âThe Diaries of Judith Malina, 1947-57â³ (Grove Press, 1984) features special moments â" her sonâs birth, her affair with James Agee. âThat was a fun book,â she said. âIâve had a fun life.â In 2008, Yale University acquired hundreds of her diaries. âIâve kept a hundred,â she said, pointing to a stuffed burgundy valise.
Sheâs not a reclusive artist. âThis is my social room,â she said about a salon at the nursing home, where she attends readings and concerts. Sheâs planning to stage a new play there, about aging. It will be performed by residents. âI want everyone in it to talk about their own experiences, about how we change for the better,â she said.
Recently, Mr. Burgess wheeled her down a hallway hung with old movie posters toward dinner, served at 5 p.m. âIt drives me crazy - Iâm not hungryâ she said, good-naturedly. âIâm used to eating after the show.â She stopped to speak with Gene Feis tâ" co-founder of the Roundabout Theatre Company. In the dining room, she greeted her tablemate, Marilyn McDonald, a former actress.
Ms. Malina poured herself a cup of coffee. âJudith will have a couple of bites of potato,â Mr. Burgess said, âand wait for the ice cream to come.â
She holds onto a hope: âI want to see the beautiful, nonviolent revolution before I leave,â she said. âIf I could be in New York, I could do more.â